It's almost midnight. I've just been sitting around all evening feeling miserable. It's about the wedding...planning. Ugh. There is so much work to be done and I'm just totally stressing over EVERYTHING. :(It took me FOREVER to determine which pattern to use for Vince's shirt. And then I spent hours agonizing over the most minute details...things that really don't even matter. Things like, the angle of the collar. So, now, I am thankful that I didn't make my wedding dress. This is why. It would have taken me weeks of just thinking about the smallest details...things that wouldn't even matter.
Why do humans sometimes hurt and not know why?
I found a few more love songs for the wedding. But I wasn't very lovely tonight.
On nights like this I just want to stay up forever. Usually I just stay up until I feel like climbing into bed with my clothes still on to fall asleep exhausted. There's something rewarding about climbing into an unmade bed or wearing your clothes to sleep. What is it though?
Maybe it's like giving life a kick in the face and saying 'I hurt, so for once I'll do what I want. No more rules.' Something like that, I think.
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